need to walk through hell for my goals. it will be worth it. it has to be. LoLs.
Imagine after 2 years doing NS, you already more or less lost what was taught in poly days. N then your first job, they pick u up n throw u in a position where you don't know how they operate with only 1 senior to help you out! terrify or not!!?? LoLs.
I'm so afraid i will screw up and lose the job or other worse things will happen. >_< they keep telling to relax, to chill, that i will learn on the way and i only need to ask the 2 perm staff but they look so unreliable to ask.. like will eat you up if u keep bothering them with questions.. how..?
So it better be worth it, im walking through hell for my goals. Never to be looked down by anyone ever again.
